Bittersweet.

i just read my good friend, rylee shai's post. i basically wanted to cry..even though it wasn't even that big of a deal, whatsoever. she just kind of reminded me of a lot of change that's going to occur.

example--my friend cole went to utah on sunday for school. i didn't really realize how close i was with him, until the last weekend before he left. he was on cross country with me, so i spent tons of time with him. more time that i thought. anyways, i'm just really sad that a lot of my friends are leaving me for college & missions.

ramsey goes up to byu tomorrow & i'm so sad i won't get to see him before he leaves.

tanner's at orientation this week & it's just becoming real that my best friend is moving away from me.

tucker leaves for college in a few months & i'm just hoping to get to spend as much time with him as possible. ah, i'm really going to miss my friends.

this is all just really bittersweet. i am one who embraces change, so don't think i'm not happy for my friends..i'm so happy they can go out & experience new things, but i'm really going to miss them. a lot. a whole, freakin' lot.

next year, i really don't have any idea what i'm going to do with myself. all my girlfriends are going to be seniors. ugh. this means they'll only be at school a few hours of the day & they won't be there during lunch. holy crap, this is going to suck big time. i really have no idea how i'm going to survive without them. all this emotional stress just seems to be heaping on me, right this second.

i just need to breathe.

i can do this. i'm abby tucker. i can do this. i can't do this..

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